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Thursday, March 10, 2011

Mai Brane Went Erk!

I think I just experienced physical cognitive dissonance. It was very weird.

(Keep in mind, I don't see my knees very often. For 8 hours a day I'm either sitting at a desk or walking somewhere, neither being activities that really allow for knee monitoring.) It's been raining, for days. This sort of weather isn't good for me. It makes my joints ache as if I spent my time on a rack rather than in a chair.

Lately, my knees have been feeling swollen. This morning, it reached the level of feeling like my knees are the size of cantaloupes. It finally got to the point where I looked at them to see what was going on. (More like, holy fuck what is going on with my knees?!)

That's when my brain went erk. "Erk" is my best approximation of the actual sound inside my head when I saw that my knees were perfectly normal and my brain shut down. I think my autonomic functions may have stopped for a few seconds. The sheer disconnect between what my knees felt like and what they looked like was just too much to process and my brain hung up like Outlook trying to download an email with an attachment*. Then my brain did this:

Brain: Touch your knees.

Me: What?

Brain: Touch your knees.

Me: Why?

Brain: They're swollen. I can tell. Touch them and check.

Me: Look at them, they're fine.

Brain: You can't trust the eyes. Touch your knees.

Me: My eyes are fine.

Brain: You are wearing red glasses so bright I'm surprised they haven't burst into flames, can you see them?

Me: Well, now I can. Thanks for that.

Brain: What about your nose? Do you have any idea what I have to do with the information from the eyes to make it usable? The eyes cannot be trusted.

Me: You know, this is a really disturbing conversation to have with your own brain.

Brain: I wouldn't know, I am your own brain. Touch your knees.

Yeah, they feel fine, although my hand passing through where the swelling should have been felt like picking up a can of soda you expect to be full that is empty instead. I'd call the doctor, but I wouldn't even know what to say. And my brain's sulking at me now.




*Every single time those idiot computer repairmen stop by, it gets worse. I've changed the password on my computer and refuse to give it to them.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Biting the Hand That Feeds

I love the Slacktivist. The biggest moment of my blogging life (and one of the biggest of my real life) was when Fred put me on his blog roll. I have arrived! Every time I visit his blog, I scroll down just to see Forever in Hell on the blog roll. Every time. I am so proud that someone like Fred thinks my blog is worth reading.

I'm not entirely certain I want to be there anymore. And my chest hurts just typing that.

It's not Fred. Fred is still Fred and he's still amazing and his blog is still amazing. It's where his blog is now, patheos.com. Fred recently moved his blog from typepad, a neutral blog hosting service, to patheos, a blog service with a definite slant- and it ain't neutral towards atheists, homosexuals, pagans or many others.

Patheos' official entry on paganism, for example:

Paganism represents a wide variety of traditions that emphasize reverence for nature and a revival of ancient polytheistic religious practices. Some modern forms of Paganism have their roots in 19th century CE European nationalism (including the British Order of Druids), but most contemporary Pagan groups trace their roots to the 1960s, and have an emphasis on archetypal psychology and a spiritual interest in nature. Paganism is not a traditional religion per se because it does not have any official doctrine, but it does have some common characteristics joining the great variety of traditions.

Paganism is not a traditional religion? Um, paganism is the traditional religion. Paganism, in one form or another predates Christianity by eons, but it's lacking in a speshul book, so it's not "traditional". mm-hmm. I also find it amazingly hilarious that contemporary pagan groups trace their roots to 50 years ago. I'd say the Zeus-worshipping Romans would find that confusing, but Christians should as well. Pagans are mentioned many times in the New Testament, which was written prior to 1960. (I checked.)


Atheism generally refers to a critical ideology that rejects metaphysical beliefs in any deity.

Actually, atheism is a lack of belief in god(s). It's not an ideology, critical or otherwise, although some atheists, such as myself, can be quite critical of belief. I'm also a little confused by the modifier "metaphysical" in that statement. Do atheists accept other sorts of beliefs in deities? I . . . don't know. What . . . why is that word there?

Atheism is the antithesis of theism, which both believes in and attempts to affirm the existence of a god or gods.

No, atheism is not the antithesis of theism. Look, theists are just like atheists, except that atheists take it one god further. If you believe in the god of Christianity, then by definition you reject Krishnu, Zeus, Odin and the thousands of other gods that have been/are worshipped. Hindus worship a panoply of gods, but reject Yhwh, Zeus, Odin, etc. Atheism and theism are not opposites by any stretch of the imagination. (Never mind that a good number of atheists don't give a shit about these arguments. They don't believe and they couldn't care less.)

Atheism assumes and often attempts to prove the impossibility of the existence of gods.

Sigh. I might spend a good portion of my time discussing the inherent ridiculousness of many beliefs (god sacrificed god to god to change a rule god made? really?), but proving the impossibility of the existence of gods? Proving a negative is a fool's game. It's up to the theists to prove the existence of the gods they assert, not the other way around.

Atheism has often been associated with agnosticism, but these two ideologies are not interchangeable. Atheism is distinguished from agnosticism in that the latter allows for the possibility of the existence of the divine whereas the former claims an absolute rejection of the concept.

I'll let that pass.

In the 19th century, Karl Marx

Oh, come the fuck on. Marx? Seriously? We're bringing out Marx in the one paragraph segment on atheism?

championed another form of atheism labeled "materialism," which stands in opposition to the metaphysical claim of "spiritualism." Marx claimed that "religion" and concepts of God were political and social constructs. Materialism claims that knowledge and truth are only available through nature and the material world. Materialism rejects the existence of a spiritual world and any knowledge that claims to come from it.

*headdesk*

Sigmund Freud championed atheism in claiming that concepts of God are just psychological deformities. Another strand of atheism is the existentialism signified by Friedrich Nietzsche and others who have claimed that belief in God restricts humanity's freedom and agency.

*headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk*
*headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk*

And that's it. That's the entire entry on atheism. BlahblahblahMARXFREUDNIETZSCHE!!!1!!!eleventy!!

Fred, man, I wish you the best with this patheos thing, but, really? Fucking really?

Oh, and Fred? You might want to check out what happens when you search "homosexual" on patheos. It's . . . revealing.

Yeah, so, I don't know what I think at this point. I didn't get much sleep last night, the weather is horrendous and I'm cranky, achey and tired. Maybe I'll feel differently after some sunshine and a good night's sleep. Maybe not. I would like to hear anyone else's opinion on this. I try to be ethical on this blog. (Well, it's not like I can make money with it, so why not be ethical?) I don't mock people I think might actually be mentally ill. I don't mock blogging teenagers. I link to atheists with political views that give me headaches because I believe in an atheist community that accepts all atheists, regardless of other viewpoints they hold.

What I'm trying to say is, I'm upset and I feel I might not be thinking clearly about this. I do have a sense of ethics and I try to hold to it. I could use some outside opinions. Thank you.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Where, Exactly, Is the War on Christmas Being Waged?


I finally did my Christmas shopping last night (I depend upon my bonus for that, and we don't get it until the week before Christmas) and while I fought the crazed crowds for the last zebra print Snuggy, I looked for evidence of this famous War on Christmas. I live in a liberal, Democratic, college town of approximately 200,000, not that far from New York City. If ever there were a place for godless atheists to make their mark in the War on Christmas, where I live is it.

I found no evidence of any such war. None. At all.

The county buses all flash "Merry Christmas!". I went to five stores, and all the cashiers wished me a Merry Christmas. Christmas music was playing at every store. Christmas decorations abounded. This morning's bus driver wished me a Merry Christmas.

So, where, exactly, is the War on Christmas being waged?
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